Perspective: Lotto

Money keeps texting me. Meanwhile I’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about the ones I blocked because they didn’t pay me well enough. Attention on who I am inside when fighting against what people see me to be sometimes. Scripting my life so I remember what track to land when those competing want to contrast. Money keeps calling me and somehow I’ve undervalued, looked at the number and set the phone down preoccupied with how to be a better human. How else to show someone I love them. How else to show them their value to me. And left to find the ways anyway, to keep caring for what has been leftover. And money is here to reward me, while I’ve been ignoring this kind of return. And so I think I care more about money now.